I hate you so much right now, that´s what you said. I tried to tell you more and more and show how I am slowly breaking apart. Not as you wanted but still bit by bit I am cracking open not only my sensetive side but the hard cracked truth. I am so tierd of beeing sad of crying of begging for one single touch. I feel uglier uglier uglier and nonworthynonworthynonworthy of anything. If I faulter one bit you hit and hit and hit not with a fist never with a fist but you know how to kill me slowly. I think I hate my cries more than you I hate me so much and even more than that. If you where to face trial would I turn my back on you, did I? I don´t know anymore I just don´t know anything any more. My trial is not like the one with a judge or jury it´s much more complex and I would rather be sentenced to many years locked away than a life with out one and with out the other. But I guess when you´re really weak in every aspect of your life then you are really worth nothing. For lonley is not strong and weak noone wants. I used to say to my best friend, it will get better. He always said it won´t and now he´s dead. He left me in this fucking shit hole of a world even though he said he wouldn´t. Because you know what, it will not get better no it won´t. I am one step away of letting go of giving up beacause this world holds no love for me anymore. If you could die of a broken heart I would be dead before I was born, so no again it won´t get better for some one as unworthy as me, my life should never have happened. You must have known that so you said: I hate you so much right now and you looked at me with those eyes of disgust. And I fell one half step closer.
Into the dust
Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
Around broken in two
'Till you eyes shed
Into dust
Like two strangers
Turning into dust
'Till my hand shook with the way I fear
I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
Under your fate
It was you breathless and tall
I could feel my eyes turning into dust
And two strangers turning into dust
Turning into dust
Into the dust
Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
Around broken in two
'Till you eyes shed
Into dust
Like two strangers
Turning into dust
'Till my hand shook with the way I fear
I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
Under your fate
It was you breathless and tall
I could feel my eyes turning into dust
And two strangers turning into dust
Turning into dust
