Beauty

He said: Your beautiful.
I said: No I am not.
I don´t look at myself that way.

What you see as beauty is ugly, rotten and bad.
I have nothing you want, I have nothing to give you.

I said : Please leave me alone and then I moved on.

Don`t underestimate.

Fragments of heaven is still heaven.
Broken hearts are still beating.
A shattered mind is still thinking.
You take half a breath, your still breathing.
One word said can mean a million.
My life is also your life.
Respect it all.

Peas in a pod

I have a pod.

It´s green and moist.
In it I have two peas, just like me....
I am a girl, the lady, bitch, goddess and sometimes even god.
They are boys, the men, bastards, the mighty gods and sometimes girls.

We are trouble, poison, black deep holes.
If you fall god help you, for we can´t.
Hell we can´t even help ourselfs.

But it brings me comfort to know that we three are alike.
I love my little peas, they make my feel, and that is good.

The policy of life

Did you know when all comes to nothing.
Roaches survive and rats outlive humans.

In the middle I am.
Who am I.
To have been given a voice.
Who am I to say what is.

Am I the roach who will survive all this.
I hope not.

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It doesn't matter
What you create
If you have no fun

Pretty girl
Put down your pen
Come over here
I'll show you how its done

I can dance, I can drink
In the dark
It's all a trick

Across the room, across the street
I'm in the moment
Can't you see

I'm a party girl
Do a twirl
See my eyes, throw a glance
Can't you see I'm a natural

Life of a party girl, funny girl
Make you laugh, want me bad
Now I feel so much better

In the back
Of a car
I just met them tonight and I feel like such a star

What's your name
What's your art
Nobody knows
About my broken heart

Yes I'm a party girl
Crazy girl
See my lips, how they move
Can't you see I'm a natural

Life of a party girl
Sexy girl
I used to be so fragile
But now I'm so wild

What did you do last night?
Oh, I was out so late, now I'm so tired

What did you do last night?
Oh, I was out so late, now I'm so tired

I'm a party girl
Do a twirl
See my eyes, throw a glance
Can't you see I'm a natural

Life of a party girl, funny girl
Make you laugh want me bad
Now I feel so much better

I used to cry
But now I don't have the time
I used to be so fragile
But now I'm so wild

I used to cry
But now I don't have the time
I used to be so fragile but now I'm so wild
So wild

trust

no truth exist
mine yours
whatever forenever

like a sweet pillowfight
softly mending
neverending

yes smile I do today
but sorrow rules
yes it rules...

transparent

hardly so hard and cold
but not nearly as so softly soft

be in me for a day
try half a night
you will flee in fright

it´s all to easy
tease me oh please, please me
come realse me

The lonely twosome.

I speak the language of cirkels.
My lips form an O.
My mind shift in forms like clouds move in the sky.
Emotions dived themselfs, like small waves on the ocean.
Barely visual for the untrained eye, subtle but strong beyond belief.
I remember things but forget so easy.
What is one moment is not the next.
I live but with no real respect for life.
Death allures me more, for peace of mind is the song of my heart.

You speak the language of the squares.
Mouth move in a stream of words.
Your mind is clear like ice and sometimes just as hard.
Your emotions are all the same, rested on firm belife.
One truth you have and you never forget.
Shift you do but never for me.
Life is your all because when you die your dead with no more to come.

Togehter we´re lonesome.
Apart it´s all the same.
It could be perfect but also a game.
We choose...

Quote of the day.

I have grown weary of literature: silence alone comforts me. If I continue to write, it’s because I have nothing more to accomplish in this world except to wait for death. Searching for the word in darkness. Any little success invades me and puts me in full view of everyone. I long to wallow in the mud. I can scarcely control my need for self-abasement, my craving for licentiousness and debauchery. Sin tempts me, forbidden pleasures lure me. I want to be both pig and hen, then kill them and drink their blood."
— Clarice Lispector

mmmm

It would be impossible to hate you,
no matter how hard I'd try
your touch is like a drug that gets me high
Your love clouds my head and intoxicates me
You're helping me become the person I always wanted to be
Everything about you drives me crazy
You make my thoughts confusing and hazy
The littlest thing you do can bring a smile to my face,
Just one kiss from you, and my pain is erased
I wish I didn't love you as much as I do,
Why can't I just not have any feelings for you?
These emotions are way too intense,
and none of this makes that much sense...
Because I always tried not to let myself get attached to anyone at all,
you messed up my plans and made me fall.