Sheding light on things.

When you write it´s easy to only focus on the negative parts of oneself and the life you lead.
As I read thru some of these scribbels it looks like the person I care most about only hurts me,
that is not true!

I am extremly difficult to be with, broken and sad.
So it ain´t easy for him.

I want to say that as dark as it might look to people on the outside.
He brings me more truth, patience than anyone I ever meet.

I miss him alot when he isn´t with me and it scares me to care for someone like that, and that makes me even more shifty in moods and thoughts.

I will try to be more positve this new year, to shed some good light on someone who actully
cares for me.