sick as fuck

Well I am sick, been so for a week.
It ´s like every thought feeling I have gets suffocated by all the nasty things in my nose and head.
I am NEVER sick so when I get sick it´s bad, and I feel like I am going to die from a cold...
Silly.

The only thing to do is to lie still and not do anything, but that is so hard and boring...

inside outside same same but diffrent

I sit and drink my mid day cappucino.
I look out at people walking by and children laughing in the snow....
while on the other side of the world people/ children are fighting for their lives and feeling their loss.
This is all happening at the same time. Even though it´s hard to get it you kind of expect it to be that way, it´s always been parallel worlds with simultaneous things going on.

But I play with the thought and bring it inside me, my mind and body.
As I feel great after morning yoga, my body also aches of sweet pain, as I enjoy this quite moment, somewhere inside me I am processing sorrow and great anxiety. Not dominant at the moment but still very much there.

So as I think and look at the world around me I become very aware of the one inside.
It´s not that diffrent and somehow it becomes easier to grasp one when intuned with the other.

timeless is the only trend

krafs och mjau

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I had the best things to say,
nicest things.
Softest touch for you...
I could lick your body make you feel like a king.
Not always what came out not always what I did.
I am not proud of it all, but neither should you be.

I lost my mind, my heart with no sleep over you.
Maybe it will come back, yes it will.
But now I am not there....
I am nowhere.

Still in the end of it all it´s because Ifeel for you.
So fuck me in the right way if you want to fuck at all....

We hurt each other till one feels no more than hollowness.
Well at least that how it is for me.
Noone is better noone is worse, I have my truth and you should have yours.

There are so many thing you don´t know about me.
A fraction is what you see.

I am confusing, so many persons in one.
The whore, the virgin, the man worse than most men, the young girl who breaks with just one hard look.
I am the pure and the dirtiest shit. I can say no to everything but also take it all.
It´s not easy for you and it´s is not easy for me.

You see this picture I post with this text, that´s me as clear as I can be.
Unfocused but still you see, a flash to blind, sharp little face, nipples always hard.
Because life isn´t clear it takes you places you didn´t expect.
It´s hard to live and it´s hard to love.
But we have one life that we know of lets make it the best..

last days of christmas

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